leaving my kpop fandom

Which means that these guys above will not be a part of my life anymore. Sure, I will listen to their music but I don't think I will ever be emotionally attached to these guys again. It will be stupid to hurt myself time and again. Ever heard of once bitten, twice shy? I have been bitten more than once which leads to my current decision to leave my fandom. This decision is not made on an impulse. It is just that... I cannot take it anymore.

Sure, these guys gave me lots of laughter and cheer me up with their funny antics (through their videos) when I am down, make my day feel better after a horrid day at school, etc. But they are also the ones that made me cry (in the bad way I mean!), gave me heartbreaks, make me feel bad, etc. And it lead me to think... Why should I go through the heartaches and sadness when it is better not to even care so much? If I don't bother about all these, if I was not so emotionally attached  to these guys, these people, I would never have had to suffer like that so why bother?

One heartbreak after the other.

TVXQ, my first fandom that started in 2007 (or was it 2008?) that got me into this mess. I cried for a few days after it was announced that these 5 guys will never be together again and that they will go their separated ways.

SHINee, my second fandom, the only fandom that I liked since the day they debuted. Rumours about disbanding had me at a loss for a few days and not to mention, I broke down. Rumours about these guys getting tortured in the company had me angry for days.

U-KISS, my first irrelevant fandom that have always brought me smiles ever since 2008 broke up. 2 members being forced to leave the company had me at loss of words. I cried yet again.

Dalmatian, who have nothing to do with this mess did nothing but I can't stand it anymore.

My only 4 fandoms that is ever relevant to me. I cannot take it anymore. It will never be the same anymore. 2008 was the best year. And it went downhill ever since. I know that I cannot continue anymore. I want to go on but it is just... not the same anymore. I don't even want to return to this scary place ever again. I am escaping... ahead of the others who fell into a deeper trap than me.

I have loved them. I have loved them so much that it hurts. I never thought that I will one day, leave this fandom. I don't know when I will be back again to love these guys. But to the rest, good luck. Please love these guys as much as I have loved them.

R.I.P. KPOP Fandom
2007 ~ 2011
I was happy while it lasted.

Because I loved them.